Well, we are moving on to IVF. I am excited and apprehensive, all at the same time. We have been on a fertility treatment break for the last month. I wasn't sure that I was ready for one at the time, but it turns out to be one of the best things that we did. I have been able to relax and feel more like myself. While fertility is always on the forefront on my mind, it wasn't always the most dominant thing on my mind. It has been a really nice break.

My break is sort of ending tomorrow. Amazingly enough the first step to IVF is to go on birth control!! I have only been on birth control for 3 months before in my life. I will now be on it for about a month and a half. We'll see how that goes... The heavy drugs won't start until mid-July, so we are mostly on a break still. I can't believe that I have to go on birth control!!!

I have been trying to read up on how to prepare for IVF. I have read many things about massage and accupuncture. I have tried massage before but not accupunture. I don't know if I am going to start accupunture quite yet, but it is nice to lose yourself in a massage and to be able to let my mind go blank - even for only a few minutes. I have a hard time stopping my thinking, even if I want to. Once we get back from vacation I think that we will enjoy a few more massages.

SART.org says that polls have shown that going through IVF can be as stressful as going through a major life event, such as the loss of a family member. I think that this is going to be stressful, but somehow I am not sure that it is going to be THAT stressful. At least I hope not. Thank goodness we are going on vacation before we begin!