I have been on bcp's for about 2 weeks now in preparation for the upcoming IVF next month. And let me tell you: I have NO idea how people live on these things!!
There must be a whole bunch of progesterone in these things, my boobs are completely sore. Not so much as with the suppositories, although I was making my own then in addition to adding some to the body, but still sore nonetheless. That isn't so bad. BUT, the cravings / aversions! OMG! I remember for a while that once in a while I get these cravings where absolutely NOTHING else seems remotely appealing - even food that I normally love makes me feel like puking at the thought of it. I just put it together yesterday that this happens during the two week wait! In other words: PROGESTERONE!
For two weeks now I have been getting randomly nauseous and have been having a hard time figuring out what to eat that won't make me gag and literally feel completely ill. Even when I find the right food and then eat it, I still feel ill afterward. At least I didn't feel like puking when it was going in I suppose.
I get at least another month of this, and then, if I am lucky, at least another 3 months after that!
Friday, June 18, 2010
Friday, June 11, 2010
Originally I thought that we were going to start after our vacation, but now we won't be starting the real part of the IVF until about 2 weeks after we get back. AHH! That means birth control for two months, not a little over one. I am not a fan of birth control. I have met people and several 'friends of friends' who have had serious life-threatening issues due to birth control. There are at least 4 that I know of. That is 4 too many in my book. Birth control can cause clotting issues and you can be especially vulnerable if you have a certain gene that makes you susceptible to clotting. However you are not ever tested for this gene before being given birth control!!
Anywho, I am not as conerned about the two extra weeks as I am about my stress levels. I feel that I would be the most relaxed right after we return from vacation. Now, it will be two weeks after. There is a big event at work that is happening right around then. We had thought about postponing IVF until after this event, but honestly, it is so unpredictable. It could move by a few days, weeks, or even months. I didn't want to put my life on hold because of that. Now, if the project continues along the current timeline, everything will be right on top of each other. I am going to do my best to relax, and we will probably go and get massages once a week or so.
I have been reading about how other women prepare themselves for IVF and many go the acupuncture route. I am a little hesitant on this. I have nothing against holistic medicine, I just don't know enough about it. I don't feel that this is the time to learn, as that process can be stressful.
I just want this all to be done with! I imagine myself finally pregnant and thinking about how I will tell people. I feel that talking about infertility is important. Most of my friends know that we are having issues, however, only several people at work know. Infertility is more common than people realize. I found out during NIAW this year that just as many couples are infertile as women have breast cancer. Now, breast cancer is certainly a more serious, life-threatening disease, but think for a moment how many women you know who have breast cancer? Who will have breast cancer in the future? That is how many people you know now who are living with infertility - whether you know it or not. Think for a minute how many fund-raisers you hear about for breast cancer, how it was once taboo but now is one of the most talked about women's health issue. Infertility should be talked about just as much. It should be taught to society. Not everyone can get pregnant when they want, but that is exactly what we are all taught. If we are going to educate our children about sex and pregnancy, let's be fully honest with them as well. They grow up dreaming of becoming Mothers one day - expecting it to be the one thing in life than can come easily, and it is a complete lie. It is just like everything else, it comes easy to some people, and not to others. They need to be emotionally prepared for this possibility. I wasn't.
I always thought that my life was too perfect, that something was going to happen. I thought that it would come as a child with a disability. While that isn't out of the question yet, it came first as infertility. On top of that came my Dad's accident last year. In two years my whole life has been turned up-side down. My work is affected, my home life is affected, my whole world has been affected. I wish I could have been better prepared - at least for the infertility part. I don't think that anything could have prepared me for the accident last year.
Anywho, I am not as conerned about the two extra weeks as I am about my stress levels. I feel that I would be the most relaxed right after we return from vacation. Now, it will be two weeks after. There is a big event at work that is happening right around then. We had thought about postponing IVF until after this event, but honestly, it is so unpredictable. It could move by a few days, weeks, or even months. I didn't want to put my life on hold because of that. Now, if the project continues along the current timeline, everything will be right on top of each other. I am going to do my best to relax, and we will probably go and get massages once a week or so.
I have been reading about how other women prepare themselves for IVF and many go the acupuncture route. I am a little hesitant on this. I have nothing against holistic medicine, I just don't know enough about it. I don't feel that this is the time to learn, as that process can be stressful.
I just want this all to be done with! I imagine myself finally pregnant and thinking about how I will tell people. I feel that talking about infertility is important. Most of my friends know that we are having issues, however, only several people at work know. Infertility is more common than people realize. I found out during NIAW this year that just as many couples are infertile as women have breast cancer. Now, breast cancer is certainly a more serious, life-threatening disease, but think for a moment how many women you know who have breast cancer? Who will have breast cancer in the future? That is how many people you know now who are living with infertility - whether you know it or not. Think for a minute how many fund-raisers you hear about for breast cancer, how it was once taboo but now is one of the most talked about women's health issue. Infertility should be talked about just as much. It should be taught to society. Not everyone can get pregnant when they want, but that is exactly what we are all taught. If we are going to educate our children about sex and pregnancy, let's be fully honest with them as well. They grow up dreaming of becoming Mothers one day - expecting it to be the one thing in life than can come easily, and it is a complete lie. It is just like everything else, it comes easy to some people, and not to others. They need to be emotionally prepared for this possibility. I wasn't.
I always thought that my life was too perfect, that something was going to happen. I thought that it would come as a child with a disability. While that isn't out of the question yet, it came first as infertility. On top of that came my Dad's accident last year. In two years my whole life has been turned up-side down. My work is affected, my home life is affected, my whole world has been affected. I wish I could have been better prepared - at least for the infertility part. I don't think that anything could have prepared me for the accident last year.
Monday, June 7, 2010
Well, we are moving on to IVF. I am excited and apprehensive, all at the same time. We have been on a fertility treatment break for the last month. I wasn't sure that I was ready for one at the time, but it turns out to be one of the best things that we did. I have been able to relax and feel more like myself. While fertility is always on the forefront on my mind, it wasn't always the most dominant thing on my mind. It has been a really nice break.
My break is sort of ending tomorrow. Amazingly enough the first step to IVF is to go on birth control!! I have only been on birth control for 3 months before in my life. I will now be on it for about a month and a half. We'll see how that goes... The heavy drugs won't start until mid-July, so we are mostly on a break still. I can't believe that I have to go on birth control!!!
I have been trying to read up on how to prepare for IVF. I have read many things about massage and accupuncture. I have tried massage before but not accupunture. I don't know if I am going to start accupunture quite yet, but it is nice to lose yourself in a massage and to be able to let my mind go blank - even for only a few minutes. I have a hard time stopping my thinking, even if I want to. Once we get back from vacation I think that we will enjoy a few more massages.
SART.org says that polls have shown that going through IVF can be as stressful as going through a major life event, such as the loss of a family member. I think that this is going to be stressful, but somehow I am not sure that it is going to be THAT stressful. At least I hope not. Thank goodness we are going on vacation before we begin!
My break is sort of ending tomorrow. Amazingly enough the first step to IVF is to go on birth control!! I have only been on birth control for 3 months before in my life. I will now be on it for about a month and a half. We'll see how that goes... The heavy drugs won't start until mid-July, so we are mostly on a break still. I can't believe that I have to go on birth control!!!
I have been trying to read up on how to prepare for IVF. I have read many things about massage and accupuncture. I have tried massage before but not accupunture. I don't know if I am going to start accupunture quite yet, but it is nice to lose yourself in a massage and to be able to let my mind go blank - even for only a few minutes. I have a hard time stopping my thinking, even if I want to. Once we get back from vacation I think that we will enjoy a few more massages.
SART.org says that polls have shown that going through IVF can be as stressful as going through a major life event, such as the loss of a family member. I think that this is going to be stressful, but somehow I am not sure that it is going to be THAT stressful. At least I hope not. Thank goodness we are going on vacation before we begin!
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